Published Thoughts - Here Goes

This blog is intended to help those like myself who feel they have a purpose or calling but have difficulty in finding or staying on the path to what or who they were intended to be. Some of us have difficulty maintaining focus - I am one such person.

As I log observations my hope is that some clarity of the important lessons in walking a path to our God given purpose will emerge. I confess up front that I do not know what those lessons will be. My pledge is to write honestly about my experiences.

Here goes!

I am out of work. I have a $218k mortgage and $10k of other debt and no prospects for gainful employment. We put our house up for sale but the market is falling away from us. We have already lost our $100k downpayment from the housing downturn. Now we may not be able to sell the house to cover what we owe on the mortgage. I don't like the idea of bankruptcy. So from my perspective our creditors will just have to understand we will pay them back when we can. Fortunately my wife has a job and it looks like she will continue there safely.

After being let go/resigning from my last job at a community bank, I decided that something needed to change. After 5 1/2 years and all of my savings I started to realize that I am not cut out for sales. People like me but that is not the same as people buying from me. I very rarely had a client who wasn't happy with me - people seem to place a high degree of trust in me. But you gotta make enough sales if you're a salesman - and I didn't.

Sometimes in life it takes a while to get the subtle distinction between what we are good at and what we are asked to do. The good news is that I finally got it. We are all teachable and can learn life's lessons. It's just a question of how long it takes us to get the point life is throwing at us. In my case the learning curve took 5 1/2 years and thousands of dollars.

A couple things I know: Whatever I do, God will have to get the glory for it - not me. And when I finally get onto the path on which I am supposed to be, I will know it. More later...